Sunday, October 12, 2014

so done.

 I just need to vent. Was it always just a dream? More like a nightmare.

What do you do when you love someone, and hope they'd change but they don't even see a need to change and therefore don't make any attempt to do so!

What do you do when you wish someone would just respect your feelings the one time you beg them too.

What do you do when you know better but don't do better!

What do you do when the relationship you are currently in becomes less of 50/50 and more of 70/30, and you don't have the upper hand.

What do you do when you cry your heart out every single night just for a slight change in things but no matter how many tears fall on his shirt he makes no attempt to even consider a change.

I view ANY experience that I can learn and grow from, and possibly help someone else grow from, as a positive thing but I'm facing my own internal struggles. Along with putting the weight of the world on my shoulders because I want to help everyone else, be there for everyone and not for a second do I stop and think , what about me? I've become such a selfless person with my time, money and my heart that a part of me feels that it's to a fault.. it's becoming my downfall.

Well pretty soon here, things are going to change. I am not letting anyone know my goals now, they'll find out after i achieve them -- and I am NOT going to be the one to tell them. If they think I am going to share my happiness over my success, they are out their minds. They don't deserve to share those moments with me, why? Because they did nothing to help me achieve it. I asked for a little bump in the right direction, to help me get this and get that,i didn't get SHIT. So I am closing this book; and chapter one of the my second book starts now.

SO DONE

xox rica

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